Shadow of Entropy
entropy, n.
PHYSICS - a thermodynamic quantity representing the unavailability of a system's thermal energy for conversion into mechanical work, often interpreted as the degree of disorder or randomness in the system.
lack of order or predictability; gradual decline into disorder.
Think of entropy as the blues or depression, maybe even melancholy. It’s that overwhelming sense of foreboding that causes a person to numb out. If entropy was weather, it would be dark, overcast, and moody.
Here’s the thing with entropy: the more you resist it, the more it holds on. The more you label it, judge it, or pretend it’s not there, the more it holds on. Think of it like the battery on your phone or laptop dying. You don’t keep making it go it. It doesn’t work that way. You have to recharge it and the less you touch it, the faster it recharges.
When entropy is repressive, it shows up as a depressive state state. It sucks the life energy out of the person experiencing it. The more the person fights it, the more it sinks its claws into the person.
When entropy is reactive, it shows up as a frenetic state. The person can’t stop being busy. Anything to keep moving. Always around people or staying active. Anything that keeps them from feeling their feelings.
How to work with this shadow state:
Accept yourself. All of yourself.
Feel your fucking feelings.
Take small steps even if it’s just taking a shower or washing your dishes.
Get into nature.
Face your fears; especially the ones that put you in that state.
Don’t fight it. Don’t judge it. Lean into it. Tell the negative committee in your head to sit down and shut the fuck up because it’s time to take care of you.
Be creative. Do art. Write more. Choose your creative outlet and when you start moving through the state, let the inspiration come to you instead of forcing it or shaming it to show up. It will come when you stop judging yourself.
See a therapist, counselor, or art therapist. (I am not a therapist, therefore, none of the above is medical advice.)
Not sure how to work with this? Check out this Blog Post here to see how to work with the Shadows. Also, feel free to check out my courses Honoring Your No and Owning My Sh*t here to help work on that self-awareness piece.
Disclaimer: What I find unhelpful with the Gene Keys text is that it is more spiritual than realistic, especially when these states are resulting in mental illness. Maybe all mental illness has a root in shadow, but that isn’t for me to say and it is super invalidating for people who experience these states. So as you read through this, or any of these shadows, know that your own experience is valid regardless of impersonal spiritual texts. This goes for Gene Keys, Human Design, and any other spiritual text even from world religions. If these texts invalidate a person’s humanity, then it’s the text that is the problem and not the person. Always use personal discernment. More of my two-cents on spiritual and religious dogma, modalities, and texts here.
